WTF

Ya'll, wtf is going on. War, cartels in Mexico, deportations here in the States... like this shit is not OKKKKKKK! And on top of all of that, I had a baby! The baby part is good of course, but combined with everything else going on right now, it's safe to say that I am a little bit overwhelmed.

It's been so long since I last tapped into my creative side, I feel like I want to get back into it. Not that anyone cares or is watching lol, but this is fun. I miss having fun. Genuinely being a mom is as hard as they say it is. I feel like I was adequately warned and still caught by surprise. Don't get me wrong, its amazing, I love my baby, and we are having a good time learning and growing as a family, BUT I AM TIRED. Really the biggest issue is that it is constant. There are no breaks, there is no real time off. Even when someone else is watching her you're still thinking about her, or worrying about her, or your boobs are leaking and swollen so you can't actually be comfortable. And the weirdest one, I can't get drunk anymore. Like my body doesn't let me. I just sober up super quick or am anxiety ridden and can't relax. I guess that's a good thing though, I probably shouldn't be drinking anyways.

All that to say that I am back. Or I want to be back. They say you never actually get back though, that you grow or evolve or whatever. Regardless, I'm going to try to be here.

So, if anyone is reading this, HI! What do ya'll wanna talk about?